my outlet!

So this is my official outlet for my views on being a mother of 3 young children, a Christian woman, and an American citizen. These are 3 things I feel very strongly about and when I am passionate about something I LOVE to talk it to death :o)
I love to text on my phone too, so there maybe some funny words or acronyms here and there.

A little background on me. I am 27 years old. I was a teenage mother at 18. I made some mistakes in my life that don't need to be published (again) because I do not feel that I am defined by them anymore. For every mistake there is a consequence, or rather, a result. The results of my mistakes are what make me so passionate about being a mother, a christian, and an american. And so it begins ...

Being a mother has been my one identity for the longest time. It was my first and foremost priority up until recently. My life is my kids. I really do believe I was put here on this planet to devote myself to them and they have been my greatest lesson and example of unconditional love. I have so much appreciation for them and they have no idea. My parents were my introduction to the concept of unconditional love but I never fully understood until I had my own just as they said it would happen. After the birth of my 2nd child, my first daughter, was when I realized that my parents were not stupid! In fact, I found out pretty quickly that they had been an untapped sourse of wisdom and advice for me that I had absolutely refused to look into. My whole childhood is virtually a blur to me. I have ADD but didn't get diagnosed until I was 17 so for the main part of my education I just sort sailed thru and was pretty oblivious to things. I don't really remember anything that I valued exactly or anything that I felt strongly about. I know my friendships that I cherished, vacations I enjoyed, but details and time lines are lost on me. I'm sad about it and think about it constantly. I don't want my kids to feel this emptiness I feel so I'm trying to make it a point to either write things down, take pictures, and talk about things that happen. I was kept in the dark about really important things as a child. About marriage, about money, religion, sex, all major major things. I was being 'protected' and my family had the abosolute best of intentions, but unfortunately I had to find out a lot of things for myself. For this reason i am teaching my oldest child (8yrs) about managing his money. He is learning bit by bit about sex and the human body at a realistic pace, I am explaining compromise because I don't ever remember compromising - I got my way a lot and my brother wasn't forced to like me or take care of me so to this day he'd rather not have anything to do with me. My son is very protective of his sisters and I try very hard to give him his own space but at the same time encourage him to make room and time for his sisters and family. I have always been taught to have love for my country and respect for it's leaders. You can't live the military life and not have that instilled in you I don't think. I didn't understand how much of a difference 1 person could make and how fullfilling it could be to stand up for something you believe in. I did a lot of things because I was told to. I didn't get any explainations, I just got directions. I don't think i ever really asked for reasons though. I loved my country because I was told to. I went to church and believed in God because I was told to.

See, at the beginning of this blog I said I THOUGHT being a mother was my very top priority. Reently, since the birth of my 3rd child 7 months ago, Irealized that being a Christian is my very top priority because my faith is what defines the kind of mother I am. God is in everything I do, everywhere I go, and everything I say. My love for God is what makes me a passionate American, too. Being a Christian, an American, and a mother equals who I am. They all go hand in hand with eachother. I can tell you though, if I did not have Christ in my life I would not be the same kind of mother or American that I am. All these lessons I am teaching and will teach my children have God's hand in them. The reasons and explainations I give them for why we go to church, or why people act the way they do, or how to manage money all come from the Christian stand point. The basis for it all is knowing the clear cut difference between RIGHT and WRONG. If you base your definitions of right and wrong on the bible you will not be misguided. If you take that concept and apply it to being an American then you have the tools you need to vote either Republican or Democrat. I have been told that 1 has nothing to do with the other but I believe that to be horribly false. My question I pose to anyone who wants to answer, in all seriousness, is it possible for a Christian to be a Democrat? I know there are Christian democrats, but if you apply the bible to politics does it work or does it clash?

I'll leave it at that for now. I've written a blog on my myspace page about the differences that I SEE between Repulicans and Democrats and I will post that here too. I wrote it because I have friends who have been of legal voting age and have yet to vote because they just don't care. It is so aggrevating to me because we have children who are going to be reaping the consequences, whether good or bad, of the decisions we make. It also irritates me because they have pretty strong opinions about what has taken place and what IS taking place but they don't seem to think they can change anything.